Well, Redlin has got some things going on.
For one thing, the camera I bought over the course of summer is really justifying itself as of lately. I've been able to shoot footage for a good number of student shorts and whenever I cam op I get incredibly happy. It's just what I'm wired to do. I want to keep doing it, get better at it and do it for a living. There is a lot of other things I can do in the film industry (people say I can direct?!) and I may end up being part of the sound department as the guy holding the stick and the mic above the actors for awhile. But when it comes down to it, I know what makes me happy and nobody can tell me otherwise.
In less positive news, I'm very uncertain about my ability to continue with my program due to financial reasons. If I don't get the money I need from the government through a student loan by February, I'm packing up and heading home. Obviously that would knock a lot of the wind out of my sails but I've been spending the last week and a half contemplating it and its not an utter disaster. I can still find work back home, build up a bank account and strike out here in the West Coast once again. I might not get to accomplish my goal of getting my film degree right away but I'll be DAMNED if I'm not going to get myself into the film industry, one way or another. I don't think I'm much good for much else in the workforce to be honest. Not in anyway that makes me money and keeps me content...
I turned 23. I'm not sure what to think about that. Still feel the same on the inside. Still kinda self-anxious... I'm blogging when I should be sleeping. I'm my own worst enemy!
In Escapist news, things are going better. GamerGate (ping, did you just hear that? That's a view from someone running 24/7 search filters just on the term! Hello bot-and/or-person who argues loudly on the internet!) has vanished from Off Topic and its a minor renaissance with threads about... THINGS instead of threads about CONSPIRACIES. It's beautiful and I've just significantly dated this post by even mentioning the subject. Dunno. Don't care. Enjoying the lull in the forums while it lasts.
I asked a girl out this past weekend.
WELL THAT'S ALL FOLKS